who am i and what am i ???

she said  "if u r in this place i feel very very fearful "...   coz...  she said " u r a psycho.... when ever u die i will get happiness in my life....   please kindly die quickly...." this is the request given by my beloved heart....   what should i do....   should i die r should i forget her.....????  

the only truth i can tell about myself is...   i can never forget her and i can never leave my parents....

oh god!!! please kindly take me away r give me some thing to resist myself ....   please this is my humble request from me...